Entri Emosi di Puasa Ketiga.

it's only 9.35pm, on the third day of Ramadhan.. and i am sleepy as hell.
semua gara-gara aku tidak dapat melelapkan mata semalam.

sedar-sedar, bonda mengejutkan aku untuk bangun sahur jam 4.15am dan, percubaan untuk tidur semula gagal. kerana aku sakit perut.

:(

i've always had problems with my stomach since i had my first food poisoning experience back in the early 2000. *sigh* bosanlah. perut sering meragam. disebabkan aku ini selalu sakit, aku suka fikir benda yang bukan-bukan.

for instance :

1) will i be missed?

2) how do i tell people how i really feel towards them?

3) what will happen to people close to me?

ya da ya da... and the list goes on........

emosi kan? tapi.. itulah yang kadang-kadang aku fikir.

so, bila tibanya bulan puasa ini, tiba-tiba semua benda yang pernah aku buat dulu-dulu datang balik. baik yang jahat, baik yang elok.

i believe in karma. jadi bila kita buat benda jahat, dibalas jahat. yup. i've paid the price. but some times i can't help myself to think that.. if only i could turn back time and change some things.. i would change plenty of things! seriously..

but........... impossible la kan? everything happens for a reason. eventhough i can't quite figure it out why do certain things happened to me and not anyone else... biarlah kan?

one conclusion i've made for myself...

i'm just halfway through the bridge i'm crossing.. i still have a long way to go. so i'm making sure that i'm safe and won't fall from the bridge.
jadi perlulah ambil langkah yang perlahan. biarlah lambat sampai, asalkan bila sampai ke hujung jambatan itu, aku betul-betul gembira dan bersedia untuk berada di situ.

hehe..

maaflah. hari ini... mood agak pelik.
so jadilah entri seperti ini.

we have been fasting for 3 days now.. 27 more days to go! so happy fasting people for the rest of the month. hopefully everything will be ok for you, for me and for everyone!

tata!!



love,



p/s : saya mahu share macam-macam di sini.. tapi nantilah. laptop tak ada.